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Edgar's Gift

Anything and everything,

the two almost the same-

everything says, have it all;

anything, one to claim

If I say, I'd give you everything,

we know it can never be,

but I will give you anything-

I just hope that thing is me.

Lullabies - Lang Leav

May

May is your month and hell so many things has happened then..

and i have confessed of a lot of thing that happened..

man, did i fall deeper to you..

dear AHHK

do you know how happy i am when you came back

you start talking, pictures, singing

and that picture of you wearing my shirt

i take it as my birthday present.

and i love them a lot

i love the shirt on you.

its perfect. you are perfect.

its beautiful. just like you.

dear AHHK

do you like your birthday present?

it wasn't as first i imagined it would be

which was a year ago back in MAA

but i think they turn out okay

my favourite selections of sweets

do you like them?

those little quotes on happiness

do you like them?

and the book that i first hold after you left

do you like them?

the card were probably too simple

do you like them?

i made all of them especially for you, and only you

i hope you like them

dear AHHK

i had rainbows and butterflies on your birthday

because i was going to see you

did you feel them too??

my heart melts throughout the day looking at you

but, theres something missing in you..

you'd be smiling and laughing and talking..

but something is missing

and i cant figure out what

i was really happy to spend my time with you

were you happy too?

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

were you too?

my dear AHHK

how my broken heart broke to smaller pieces when you blocked me

it wasn't because i was blocked

but its on its why

i didn't want to believe

i guess

i thought that you would be mine again

not hers

i wanted to make you mine

i prayed

lord, i prayed hard

i prayed for you to come back if you were meant for me

do you see why i am so happy when you do?

i prayed that

if you are for me and i can make you happy

then you'll find a way back

if you are not meant for me

then he'll take away these feelings, and take you far away off my mind

but everyday, every prayers

my feelings for you grew

bigger and bigger

i feel lost and confused

it hurts me, it breaks me

to me to feel happy and in love of you

but only to see you

annoyed and resent me everyday of what i do

dear AHHK

what do i do

to either have you

or to lose you

to be love by you

what i would give to make you stay

i would give it all away

i wish you would stay

"stay regardless what may be"

i would love you, and only you

it will be forever, you.

only you