its a long but worthy journey

whenever you feel like Allah actually answers to your prayers

don't you feel happy?

i feel super happy. and grateful =)

i am no anywhere pious and whatnot. i can't give any religiously-ish kind of advice

but i can tell/share the little things that i know, or my own experiences, or view

kinda.

sometimes, i wonder if it was all games of the devil and all

it actually scares me

what if i am blinded by it

but hopefully, its nothing like that

insyaAllah, its not like that.

kan?

i don't even know how to explain things

but i am just grateful at this moment.

i hope this wouldn't stop me from doing more

i hope that someday the reasons itself will change for the better

i hope to be better

even if the reason now may not seem as right

but insyaAllah i will try to fix it

i hope someday i will be good enough

p/s

if you feel like you need a lot of time, sembahyang diawal waktu.

like really, personal experience, i don't know how true but this is what i normally noticed.

every time  spend my time doing things, time feels like they flew so fast.

but whenever i prayed right after adhan, it always surprised me how slow the time was

this got me a few times.

i don't know it its just me. but we are adviced to do so, isn't it?

maybe its one of things to reward you, perhaps?

it helped me at least

alhamdulillah

to AHHK

i don't hate you. not even a tiny bit. i can never hate you.

i wish i can but i can't afford to hurt you again.

but if you ever need me, i will be here for you.

i hope you are doing okay. both you and your family

i wished nothing but the best for you.

i really am worried for you. especially after you decided to request it

i know the act may seems small for you, but it not for me

it made me super happy.

thank you. really.

but i am scared i will hurt you again, i don't know what to do anymore..

i wish i am enough for you.