in time

just yesterday, i spent a few hours lying on the floor trying to figure out what i am feeling.

mind was kinda blank which was rare but occasionally happened

one of the thing i argued with myself were about whether or not i still like "star" and figuring out whether i am giving up on him or giving in. to be honest, i don't think even now i have the answers to myself. but i had fun talk yesterday. past included. i can feel i'm a bit better now and i think at this moment, i came to an agreement. to myself.

happy moments, still bring happy feels. even now.

regardless how bad they broke me last time, i guess never denies all the good things they have done for me in the past.

good deeds were still good deeds as of that moment 

and i shall treasure them each

both HH and AH

and especially to AH

berserah atau putus asa. i don't know which. i tried hard to think but i couldn't

i even came to the point wonder if i still like you or not

everything were just confusing

but,

what i can say now is that, i do know that i like you still

even today. even now.

i don't understand why but i do

how can someone made me fall this hard over such short period of time.

but i think i will let go

i been trying to. still trying to. will try to.

be happy. i love you.